Be The Fire Keepers

Be the Fire keepers

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html

#keepmovingforward
#beingwhole
#endmentalhealthstigma
#suicideprevention

Transformation. William C. Hannah Quote

#beingwhole

#keepmovingforward

living with mental illness? thank you for fighting another day

If I want to keep my sanity, I need not let others define me LIVECAST

If I want to keep my sanity, I need not let others define me

I had become the mask

I told myself lies for so long that I started believing them... That I wasn't worth it, that I did not deserve it, i did not matter, I was not beautiful, I was fat, drugs were okay, others opinions mattered ..... I got tired of these lies, I got tired of being a victim and lonely.

So I started telling myself new ones. I was worth it, I do deserve it, I am love, I love myself, I am beautiful, I have purpose, others peoples opinions of me don't matter, drugs are not good for me...... You know what I started believing these lies after awhile and they became truths in my reality.

‪#‎iamkat‬
‪#‎iseeyou‬
‪#‎beingwhole‬
‪#‎livetolovelovetolive‬
‪#‎livetolove‬
‪#‎keepmovingforward‬

Road to Sustainability: Cutting out red meat

I thinking about cutting pork and beef out of my diet. Yes that means bacon as well. For now small steps and going to just reduce how much I eat. I want to start eating more chicken and fish, for now deer and buffalo remains on the list of acceptable things to eat. This also is on goal for sustainable love by 2018. I want to approach how I eat food differently as well. Cut down on waste and be more proactive in my health all they wrong. I'm not saying there is anything wrong with red meat or pork. I've been monitoring my body last couple of months and body isn't processing the pork and red meat as well.

Next month I need to get some new running shoes get myself a break from boots all the time.

Life Changed

Life changed when I stopped battling mental and physical health problems. I stopped treating my drug addiction, mental and physical health as problems, as enemies. Today I walk alongside my drug addictions and mental health problems as a friend whom I respect and builds me up today versus tears me down when I choose to work against them. Today it's a team work, and I is no longer a solo player.

This is my vibrant life and journey. I walk alongside with many friends that I thought had no place in my life. Today what I thought were defects of character are actually are my greatest assets. I am a recovering addict, who lives alongside her mental health, and today they are my gifts not my crutches.

‪#‎iamkat‬
‪#‎beingwhole‬

Travel Day Milan to Berlin

Travel Day Milano, Italia to Berlin, Deutschland. By this time tomorrow I will be arriving in Berlin. It's a 15h bus ride to Berlin. I will hit countries 9 & 10. I am recharged and rejuvenated hoping that the light helped heal the impending sickness yesterday. I'm grateful for the light in my life, I'm grateful for the journey.

I wake up knowing my friends back home are walking for life at this moment in overnight Suicide prevention walk. It's things like this that make life pretty amazing.

I love that I don't have bad days, I have some puzzles days but life as awesome simply because every morning I will it to and will the opportunities to see gratitude in my life.

So saddle up your horses I have a trail to blaze, if you follow, you are welcome but if you don't that's okay because it's my life, my trail, and I have a tornado to bridle.

Live to LOVE Love to LIVE
Keep moving forward this is my Amazing Grace

The Heroine of My life

#mynameis ....

‪#‎mynameis‬


With me traveling as a photojournalist abroad, I have done a great disdain for myself and my career and miss out on chances because I am at risk if I am out and open. And here I will be vulnerable. You see as an intersex woman I have to limit my advocacy and often silence my voice around political matters including trans rights at the moment for Facebook policies that refuse to protect me, a journalist, in my travels in the work that I do. Because to have my Facebook which is viewed by not only my friends but their friends and by whoever likes a comment, video, or post that I Share or put on my wall, Facebook has forced someone who is proud of who she is back into the closet because they will not let me protect myself and my family as a journalist. I am a recovery meth addict, a leather woman, human rights activist, and spiritual "leader" (I use leader loosely as I am only a servant), a woman living with HIV and a platform that promotes "inclusive" social media allows me to be all but.


Maybe you feel I'm being overly melodramatic and that I'm not that important to be bother with and I have nothing to worry about; and yet my own country is at war on bathrooms and other anti lgbtq discrimination laws, and other countries abroad have their own laws. Media is the enemy especially when it's not bought and paid for by corrupt entities. In my field on my page with my name, the one on my passport, on my identifications and press credentials puts me at risk and limits what I can do, limits my voice, keeps me oppressed. You see as someone who has a vibrant life who "passes," had surgery to find out this information about me especially state officials and others who wish to do me harm puts me at risk to being raped, imprisoned, killed, and puts my family at risk as well. I have repeatedly asked Facebook to protect my family, friends, and myself for well over a year in preparations for this journey and my emails have gone unanswered. Sister Roma told me to give FB until Tuesday to answer and respond to mine and her requests. I removed personal information from my page, moved my family to a separate page and doing what I can to be proactive in my journey and to protect myself, and yet I find myself silenced. I am not in the safety of the Bay Area or the United States. I am a solo female traveler abroad in Europe and further.


#Mynameis Lady Katerina an honorific given to me by my Leather community, one I have assumed in my spiritual path and a reminder on how I interact with people and what my sober life means to me. The title also honors a Valkyrie of my community who told me all honor my leather heart and keep the tenets of honor, service, discipline, and integrity an all that I do. It's an honorific that reminds to love myself and be of love. It is my protection.


I ask Facebook publicly again if they value life and their members to change my name on this page and also remove my last name on my family page as even with documentation and constant request won't display it properly.


‪#‎iamkat‬

‪#‎freedomofexpression‬

‪#‎reporterswithoutborders‬

#mynameis

Land's End Labyrinth Photoshoot

Photo credit Michael Kerner Photography

As a Leather Woman I have been blessed with more than just a great community but given a foundation to life. My vest no longer fits, and the Leather Archives and Museum has asked for it.
Walking the Labyrinth and Flagging at Land's End. Communing with the Sacred Intimate as I say thank you and goodbye for now to San Francisco and the Bay Area. I leave my heart and because I knew you I have have been changed for the better, because I knew you I've been changed for good. The Photographer was going for vulnerable but weird tourist energy appeared.

 This was my 1 year anniversary photoshoot since surgery.