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I write this with joy and peace knowing the Lord provides the way and is the Great Comforter. I have been going through a few rough patches but i know there is a light at the end of the tunnel somewhere.  Thanksgiving was great I was invited to go to Robert's family's places with him for Thanksgiving; really had a nice time.  Robert and I broke up before Thanksgiving a few days before 6 months. We still are excellent friends and I am blessed to have him in my life.  It's a good thing  I was returning to the LDS church anyways, and at least my relationship with Robert was strictly platonic.  I will always be attracted to men and that can't be helped but I do want a family.

I have been going back to the temple and very involved with the University 46th ward 5th Stake for the University of Utah.

I have been walking a lot more with my cane and I also use a wheelchair now to help me get around.

11 NOVEMBER 2007

What an opportunity to pick up in journal writing a feat that has kind of been placed on the back burner.  I pick up this journal and start rerecording my entry back into the LDS church.  When I came out of the closet I accepted me being gay.  It did not change the truthfulness of the church.  I am required to follow the law of the LDS church no matter what for it is the true church.  I may be be gay but I am LDS and I will do what it takes to CTR for it is my duty no matter what to seek the truth and do the Lord's will no matter the consequences.

FOLLOW THE LORD'S WILL NO MATTER THE CONSEQUENCES