Alma 29.9 I know that which the Lord hath commanded me, and I glory in it. I do not glory of myself, but I glory in that which the Lord hath commanded me; yea, and this is my glory. that perhaps I may be an instrument in the hands of God to bring some soul to repentance; and this is my joy.
It is very hard for me to trust people let alone open up to people. Well I have decided that I am going to let people help me, support me, and get close to me. Both family and friends alike. I am no longer afraid to be myself and don't care what anyone else thinks. I am 25 year old and a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and I struggle with SSA, or SGA or whatever you want to call it. Basically I stuggle with Same Gender Attraction. However there is a difference from struggling with it and participating in it. I am working to overcome these thoughts or at least deal with them in a healthy way. I am going to overcome through the support of my family and friends, and also through a great Support Group through Evergreen International. Its not that I like being with guys its just that intimate bonding, and cuddling of being hugged and feel like your loved even for just a short period of time. If I had my way I would have gotten rid of these thoughts a long time ago. But this is my cross I have to deal with. I may always have these thoughts but i definitely can reduce the urges and thoughts and not act on them. It is my plan to be married in the temple and raise a family. You can overcome and be freed from the shackles and chains of bondage of this addiction through the faith and love of Heavenly Father. I am sending some books to my family so they can support me in this.
But I recommend for anyone struggling with SSA or SGA that you read Resolving Homosexual Problems: A guide For LDS Men By Jason Parks. And for those who wish to Support friends and family who are going this same problem. Helping LDS men Resolve their homosexual problems by Jason Parks. Both books can be bought at Deseret Book or online. And these books are for all men whether LDS or not.
As a convert to the church I testify that this church is the true church and the only true church having the proper authority to preform the Lord's ordinances for the glorification of the Kingdom of God. I know that President Gordon B. Hinckley is the true prophet, seer and revelator currently in this dispensation and that he is called by God and not by man. I know that without a doubt that Joseph Smith was and is a true prophet called by God to restore the church. And I testify that the Book of Mormon is a true testament of our Savior's love for use. I say these things in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, Amen.
